Mother's Day Reflections

Mother's Day Reflections

Today as I sit outside in my backyard on this beautiful spring day I reflect.
You would think that I would want  a large breakfast and to be catered to all day.... But honestly this time that I have to simply sit and reflect without interruption, drinking a hot cup of coffee, with a nice spring breeze blowing listening to the birds sing their songs is just enough to make it the perfect day.... Silence just me and my thoughts!

Reflection....

I reflect on my mother and her strength. I remember no matter what my mother was always mom. Caring, loving, strong and full of God's Love.
I reflect on my mother who was only with ME for 9 years giving me lessons that didn't last the moment but have stuck and lasted a lifetime.
I reflect on my mother and the teachings that have made me the woman I am today.
I reflect on the times we shared, the love she gave, the kisses she bestowed and the hugs she gave me daily.
I reflect.... I reflect on those times not only on this day but everyday.  I reflect.....

I miss my mother and her loving touch, her hand on my hair, her hand in mine....I miss her voice... her eyes on me... her talking to me and my siblings....Reading to me... and just her being my mom......I miss her so dearly...I miss that she could not attend my graduation or be in the front seat at my wedding...or hold my only son.... I miss her being able to do all these things but in my heart I know she has always been here sharing those moments with me in spirit. I have felt her hold me when I was down...I have felt her touch me when I needed that loving touch of mom... I have felt her kiss me when I needed someone to place a touch on my cheek in trying times... I have felt her hold my hand when I felt my hands couldn't do anything but hold hers...I have felt her say I Love You when I felt lonely and everyone around me judged me and said they hated me...I've felt her there with me.....I miss my mother but I love that she is with me and continues to love me abundantly!

I reflect on being a mother and knowing and realizing what a blessed woman I really am. My son has shown me what true love is really about and I am so grateful that God saw me fit to be his mother, his confidant, the first woman that teaches him how to love.

Finally, I reflect on those who stood in the gap when my mother was no longer physically with me. First I reflect on my sister.... My sister who was a young woman starting her own life stood in the gap and cared for me and my brother. There is a lot to be said about my sister but one thing she didn't do was say no or that she would not. I reflect on my aunt who also stood in the gap to care for me. She didn't have to but she did. I reflect on all of the women that were mothers to me without even knowing it. The words, the thoughts the talks, the gentle reminders, the hardcore beat downs that keep me moving from day to day.

I am so appreciative of all the women that play a role in shaping me, in making me who I am today. Who continue to inspire me and create a me that is so proud to be a product of the wonderful women in my life.

Reflections.... I reflect from day to day, but today my reflections come with such love and admiration for the mothers in my life. I am so blessed to have so many you have made a difference in some way. Today I take the time to say THANK YOU! You all may not hear me or ever see this but I say it with the love that you have instilled in me.


Be Blessed, Be Encouraged and Be a Blessing,
Racquel